Your ex-wife is trying to punish you and that's all this is about. Same thing with my ex-wife: she's been punishing me for a long time. The best thing to do is rip the scab right off.
This is how I would run this cycle: Testo Prop 50 mg every other day and Anavar or Winstrol 25 mg a day. Start there and you'll have great results for 6 to 8 weeks.
Probably a good idea with Winstrol to run some joint support supplements with it. That would be the best thing you can do because it will tear up your joints.